Eureka followed by a dark storm

For someone who gets into music and starts doing things with it. Life becomes a humongous complexity. I infact, it goes into a brooding complex cycle. There are sudden spurts of enthusiasm, followed by passage of complete chaos.

Why should this happen? One of the reasons I feel this happens (at least to me) is because of the obsessive quality of music. It gets to you before you get to it. So you feel high when you suddenly get an insight into some nuances that you've been studying and practicing for a long long time... its great when it comes together. But then, that lasts a short while. That's cause it is followed by the next level of learning and slogging and frustration that you have to go through.

And to make life harder, there are many elements which one needs to learn in the path of learning music. Its not just about your chosen instrument. Its also about how sound comes together to form music.

By sound, I mean, the oversimplified things like melody, rhythm, percussions, grooves, percussive elements... and more importantly, the "tonal variations" something that you'll always be grappling with till you find your tone.

So in my case, if I had to learn how to play the guitar, I also have to parallely learn how rhythms and counts work, how bassline work, how harmonies work on one hand and on the other, what kind of tones, amps, pedals, mixes ...

I am sure anyone reading this post will realise that I am going through that phase of emotional frustration! You bet. But then, the motivation to get to that next eureka is what's getting me on.